“Mom! My kindle free time is frozen and I need you to exit out of it!” Madi exclaimed. She shoved the device in my hand as I was simultaneously peeling a potato. I stopped what I was doing and realized that the entire device had frozen. Madi, in her usual hurry, was ready to get on to her game. Pronto! “Madi, your kindle needs shut down. You have to give it time to think.” Just like mom, I thought in my head as I went back to finishing preparing our dinner. How nice would it be to have a button I could push when I needed a break. A quick little refresh to get me right back on track.
Much like every woman I know, I take on far too much in my day. It’s like a badge of honor, having all those wonderful balls to juggle in the air. Perfectly balance and in sync. Just don’t try to throw anything else in the mix without prior approval or the whole show might come tumbling down! As much as I hate to admit, my well orchestrated life is often an illusion. And, like any good magician, only I know all of the tricks to making it appear seamlessly. To say I am overwhelmed would be an understatement.
The question I must stop to ask is how.
How do I get myself into this place of overwhelming exhaustion time and time again?
The first thing I have to consider is how much time I have allowed myself to get saturated in the word of God. Like eating a healthy diet and daily exercise, time in God’s word is a daily essential requirement. And, often the first thing to go in my routinely busy day. Daily, I need to be reminded that his grace and mercy are new to me every morning. Daily, I need to be reminded that God’s power is made perfect in my weakness. Daily, I need to be reminded that I am a loved and cherished child of God. An heir to his kingdom. The crown on his head and the royal diadem in his hand. A symbol of his living power, grace and mercy to a lost world that surrounds me.
Then, I need to trust him with every detail in my life. Nothing is too minor. Every worry and concern, every dark & unlovable feeling I am harboring, every circumstance and situation that seems impossible and out of my control need to be laid before the Father’s throne. And left there! I need to trust that the God of the Universe can handle every detail of my life!
Last, I need to steal time away to sit and listen. Quiet & uninterrupted. To do that, I have to intentionally escape the realities of my life. I personally love lake and pond areas. However, my back patio will do in a fix. This is time just to sit and listen for the still, small voice of God. Time to allow his spirit to resonate my stress and anxiety that he may instead give me a peace that surpasses all understanding. True refreshment to my parched soul.
I find that it is not the big things that most often overwhelm me. It is the little day to day stuff. Limited finances that crash into teens with endless pockets. Broken car parts. Unmet expectations. Broken dreams. The responsibility of saying “yes” to one too many things. But I have to remember that in these moments of overwhelming exhaustion, I am not alone. In Psalm 3 it says that God is my glory and my shield. He lifts my head high. I picture a loving father, gently placing his hand under the chin of his beloved child. Lifting gently until their eyes meet and he gently reassures her with the love and compassion in his gaze. There is no refreshment quite like it.