“Therefore my spirit is overwhelmed within me; My heart within me is distressed. I remember the days of old; I meditate on all Your works; I muse on the work of Your hands. I spread out my hands to You; My soul [longs] for You like a thirsty land. Selah “ Psalm 143: 4-6 (NKJV)
I was talking to a man who is near and dear to my heart the other day. A career Veteran who has made to secret about how badly “civilian” life sucks. We were talking about Christianity and the things that motivate us. And then came the tone. The same one David uses when he is getting ready to drive home a point. (I think they teach it in basic training). He said, “Here’s what I have to say to that. The thing that motivates me is helping soldiers succeed. Now that I’m retired, I’m just here, Markin time.” Whoa. It took me back for a second and that is certainly not where the conversation ended, but his phrase, “Markin Time”, has hit me this week.
I am a checklist lady. I have my list of things to accomplish filled out and checked twice every morning. Okay, more than twice, but it sounded good. I follow my list to the “T” and become very discouraged if I don’t get something on it accomplished. I don’t handle curve balls well. I like for my life to have momentum. Particularly if that momentum is carrying me to the weekend.
My feeling is that God has placed this phrase on my heart because, even though I don’t acknowledge it, “markin time” is exactly how I have chosen into living my life. “If I can just get these things done, I can___.” “I’m ready for today to be over.” Etc, etc. And the question that hit me this morning is,”For What?” What is so important after today? The only answer I have is that I will have another day, week or month just like today-only tomorrow. Right? What am I really working for?
God doesn’t create his people to live a life of obscurity. We are not here to “Mark Time”. Daniel 11 says that the people who know God shall be strong and carry out great exploits! Great exploits! That’s what I’m talking about. I’m headed back to the throne room today to rediscover the dreams God has laid upon my heart. The dreams I surrendered a long time ago. The ones I knew I would never accomplish on my own strength. I’m making the choice to live my life differently. To make my life count in some way each and every day. I firmly believe that I can have everyday adventures in the life God has given me. But, will I give up my own agenda in order to make it happen?
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured on the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.” Hebrews 12:1-2