Monthly Archives: October 2012

Markin’ Time

Therefore my spirit is overwhelmed within me; My heart within me is distressed. I remember the days of old; I meditate on all Your works; I muse on the work of Your hands. I spread out my hands to You; My soul [longs] for You like a thirsty land. Selah “  Psalm 143: 4-6 (NKJV)

I was talking to a man who is near and dear to my heart the other day.  A career Veteran who has made to secret about how badly “civilian” life sucks.  We were talking about Christianity and the things that motivate us.  And then came the tone.  The same one David uses when he is getting ready to drive home a point. (I think they teach it in basic training).  He said, “Here’s what I have to say to that.  The thing that motivates me is helping soldiers succeed.  Now that I’m retired, I’m just here, Markin time.”  Whoa.  It took me back for a second and that is certainly not where the conversation ended, but his phrase, “Markin Time”, has hit me this week.

I am a checklist lady.  I have my list of things to accomplish filled out and checked twice every morning. Okay, more than twice, but it sounded good.  I follow my list to the “T” and become very discouraged if I don’t get something on it accomplished.  I don’t handle curve balls well.  I like for my life to have momentum.  Particularly if that momentum is carrying me to the weekend.

My feeling is that God has placed this phrase on my heart because, even though I don’t acknowledge it, “markin time” is exactly how I have chosen into living my life.  “If I can just get these things done, I can___.”  “I’m ready for today to be over.”  Etc, etc.  And the question that hit me this morning is,”For What?”  What is so important after today?  The only answer I have is that I will have another day, week or month just like today-only tomorrow. Right? What am I really working for?

God doesn’t create his people to live a life of obscurity. We are not here to “Mark Time”.  Daniel 11 says that the people who know God shall be strong and carry out great exploits!  Great exploits!  That’s what I’m talking about.  I’m headed back to the throne room today to rediscover the dreams God has laid upon my heart.  The dreams I surrendered a long time ago.  The ones I knew I would never accomplish on my own strength.  I’m making the choice to live my life differently.  To make my life count in some way each and every day. I firmly believe that I can have everyday adventures in the life God has given me.  But, will I give up my own agenda in order to make it happen? 

Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured on the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.”  Hebrews 12:1-2

Unchanging…..

I was at Tangles a couple of weeks ago, visiting with Faith, my hairdresser after a whirlwind month was coming to a close.  Faith has been the keeper of my locks for about five years now, but we knew each other in a Maternity water aerobics class.  She was expecting her first child, Addy and I was expecting Lucas at the time.  We had our babies two days apart.  She was talking about how they were going to be 10 next year.  Double digit birthdays!   Isn’t it amazing how time flies.

I took a minute to reflect.  Chloe will be 13 next year.  Lucas 10.  Madi will be 5 in just two weeks.  Where has the time gone.  And I had a moment of sorrow.  No more babies.  Next year, all my kiddos will be school aged.  It’s exciting and sad all at the same time.  But it also caused me to stop and think.  Wonder.  What could I have done better?  What do we need to do before the years to adulthood fly by and they are gone?  To be quite honest, it’s  a little overwhelming. 

2012 has been a season for change in the Landrus household.  I started the new year with a new job.  I gave up my part in children’s ministry.  We are transitioning churches.  Each of the kids have their own social activity schedule that we are trying to keep up with.  Event expectations at work.  A promotion for David. All good things.  Things that I feel God is leading us too and through.  Yet, it is easy for me to get swept up and exhausted by circumstances.  It is easy to identify all I have done wrong.  Life can be overwhelming to say the least. 

A verse came to me that I have heard millions of times and it hit me with a fresh wave.  I invite you to hear it new for the first time.  Bask in it:

                “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever.”  Hebrews 13:8  NKJV

The same.  Unchanging.  Even when the circumstances of my life appear to be a tornado of endless activity.  Even when I make mistakes.  Even when I need to appeal to Him for forgiveness and priority change- AGAIN, He is unchanging.  His promise is unchanging.  He’s not taking it back.  There is something more than this life and its daily chaos.  It is Eternity with Christ in Heaven.   I’m so thankful to serve an unchanging God .