I am a closet rap fan. Okay, so I’m not in the closet anymore. There is something about Bass that sets things right in my world. It’s quite possible that this love stems from being rocked to sleep by it in student housing as a baby. When the song in my title, produced by Eminem, debuted, I recall an interview he did with one of the major morning shows. The talking heads asked him,” What is the meaning of your song?” To this he replied that we all have two egos that live within us. We have one side that we want the world to see. The good, loving, wonderful side. But we also have a “Slim Shady” that lives within us. This is the ego that causes us to flip someone off in a fit of road rage. (His words, not mine!) I remember his words resonating with me. I can completely relate. NO! I have not flipped anyone off in traffic, but I do have a two year old that lives inside of me when things don’t go exactly my way. Turns out, I’m not the only one. Take note from Paul in Romans 7: 18-20:
“And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. I want to do what is right, but I can’t. I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one who is doing wrong; it is the sin living in me that does it.”
As “good” Christians (this IS an oxymoron), we tend to believe that we are born as “good” people. In reality, the bible says there is no such thing! In original creation, we are born to the “flesh”. This not only means our skin, but more importantly, human nature! This is the earthly nature of a man apart from divine influence, therefore, prone to sin and opposed to God. So God decided we needed some training wheels. He sent Moses to the mountain and created “The Law”. Believers of God were so excited about “The Law” they forgot God’s promise of a Savior. Many still believe, to this day, that through their own “good” actions, they can get to heaven. But, the bible say’s we have to be born again, to the spirit; The disposition, or influence that fills and governs the soul of anyone. In my mind, I know God sent his son to the cross to die for my sins. I fully accept that I cannot get to Heaven on my own. But my dilemma comes in when I try to live up to “The Law” and transform myself into who I think God wants me to be. This was not God’s design, at all! In Galatians 3:3b, Paul reminds us, “Having begun by the Spirit, are you now being perfected by the flesh?” Okay, so when you say it out loud, it sounds scary!
I leave with this thought. When my “Slim Shady” is trying to come out to play, I will remember that I am “under construction.” If God had made himself perfect in me, I would be blogging from Heaven. God produces good fruit: Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness and self-control. If the fruit I produce is anything other than these character traits, I am commiting Galatians 5:24-25 to heart:
“For those who belong to Christ Jesus have nailed their passions & desires of their sinful nature to the cross and crucified them there. Since we are living by the spirit, let us follow the Spirits leading in every part of our lives.”